Insomnia

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I haven't slept a minute in the last 48 hours. And certainly not for lack of trying. Relaxation techniques, reading, 2 1/2 shots of NyQuil; nothing has worked. I've had bouts of insomnia before, but never this bad. At this point, I can't think straight, which is fabulous considering I have a class presentation in 20 minutes.

When I was younger, I loved Stephen King's book, Insomnia, and from what I can remember (it has been a long time since I've read it) eventually the guy ends up seeing all sorts of crazy auras and stuff and really, now, something cool like that is all I'm hoping for (it can't be long before it happens, I'm feeling all shaky and wierd right now). Well, that, and maybe a few hours of shut eye but I'm doubtful on that one.

To be honest, I don't even know what's going on, or if any of this makes sense, or anything. I'm just hoping to make it through the day. Five o'clock can not possibly come soon enough.

Farewell, Mooch

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You shall be missed. While the Lions continue to lose. Over and over and over again.

Fourteen Year Old Twin

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I was at a party last night and when I walked in the door, this girl immediately started giving me these weird looks. Not one to be concerned about that kind of thing, I blew it off until she finally told me what she was thinking, that I look just like Ginny Weasley. Who?? I had no idea... she told me it was some chick from Harry Potter, and I think ya'll know how I feel about dear Harry, so yeah, absolutely no idea what she was talking about.

Anyway, I forgot about it, cause it seems like in this world, everyone walks around telling everyone else that they look like so and so the actor or this girl who I went to high school with... and it is very rarely the case that the two actually look similar. But then this girl showed me this pic of Ginny she had on her iPod photo, and I was shocked. She freaking does look like me. Especially with the way I've recently been wearing my hair. Too freaking wierd.

I showed my mother today at Thanksgiving, and I think she about had a heart attack when I pulled the pic up on the internet. And actually, just looking at it while I'm typing this is creeping me out. Oh yeah, and she's fourteen years old. Sweet. At 24, just what I want is a fourteen year old twin.

6 AM Should Be Illegal

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My alarm went off at 6:00 am this morning... man that was a painful sound. Even more agonizing was when I hit the snooze and it seemed like 30 seconds later that terrible beeping started again.

8:00 am classes make me want to hit someone in the face.

Counting it Down

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So, I use an incredibly simple counter system on the blogs... not even sure why I have them because they certainly aren't all intricate like the ones you see where you can tell how people found the blog, and they don't account for multiple log-ins on a given day. I check the blogs maybe twice a day to see if anyone has commented, so for sure they count my visits, which is weird, and god knows I may have a stalker that checks the blogs like 50 times daily.

But this is what really confuses me. Things Loved is way ahead in hits over Things Hated. I've been told by many people that Things Hated is way better (yes, I write more emotionally when I'm pissed off), and Hated debuted a good 5 months before Loved. Where do I have Loved listed that Hated isn't? Do people stumble upon it and then decide that it sucks so bad that they aren't going to hit the little link up top to check out Hated? I just can't figure it out.

Stupid counters, they drive me crazy.

Procrastination Station

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This paper is weighing on my mind. The document is open, the sources are to my left, and I've even got the first third of it done. But something in me isn't letting me type another word at the moment.

I've purchased a "new" phone on eBay, done some Christmas shopping on Amazon, chatted with friends, formatted part of the appendix for the paper, and now I'm thinking I should catch up on Pink is the New Blog... oh yeah, and I'm blogging.

Eventually, I must run out of ways to procrastinate, yes? Lets hope so, it would be terribly unfortunate if this paper didn't get done tonight. Where does this issue come from? What is this thing in me that doesn't let me do what I need to do, when I need to do it? Nevermind that I have two days before it's due, I have IMPORTANT THINGS to do, like hang out with Fred Phelps and watch the Lions. Come on, KTC, buckle down. Write the damn paper!

Evil Jimmy John

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Jimmy John, yes, "the" Jimmy John, as in Subs So Fast You'll Freak and all that, likes to kill things. Big, rare things that he has to travel halfway round the world to find. This disgusting image was taken right after he killed this once beautiful, perfectly harmless elephant who certainly did nothing wrong except for mind its own business in its African home. My, Jimmy looks pleased, doesn't he? What a jerk. Don't eat at Jimmy Johns. Just don't do it.

Political Rant Wednesdays

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I do realize that this series of entries could alienate some readers. But I think I’ve said this before… this is my blog, I do this for ME, not to get famous or score a book deal or to make friends or anything. Release, people, I’ve gotta get it somehow.

All of this spewing comes from an episode of Meet the Press from last week. Not sure what day it was on, but I sure did watch it in class today. Basic premise: The current state of the war in Iraq- Republican vs. Democratic views.

I’m not sure that the RNC knows about basic human functioning. Many Democrats supported the effort to go to war with Iraq when they were told that there were Weapons of Mass Destruction there… but now that they KNOW otherwise, they have CHANGED THEIR MINDS. It’s what we, as humans, do when faced with information that opposes original beliefs. For the RNC to jump down the throats of Democrats like John Edwards (so hot, btw) for re-evaluating their views is incredulous. If the republicans could stop being so damn stubborn and just admit a mistake for once, “whoops, we were wrong, they don’t have any WMD’s,” and tell the freaking truth, that would be great. Oh yeah, then they might lose an election. Cause we all know that’s what’s important here… Cheney’s political career takes precedence over whether or not my friends and neighbors live or die. I almost forgot.

Let’s reference 9/11 a bunch ‘cause it’s scary. Never mind that there is no connection between those attacks and Iraq. Let’s scare people into voting Republican. That could work. Oh shit, it already did, lets do it again… and again… and again….

I cried when Bush won this past election (yes, I am a big baby). God only knows what I’ll do if (when?) Cheney makes it to the head chair in that oval office. I may very well hide in my basement room for days on end with the lights off, softly rocking to Joni Mitchell crooning on the record player. Or, the common Democratic American response, “I’m moving to Canada.” But guess what? Canada will only take so many freaked out Americans. And I think they’ve almost reached their quota.

Fuck this, I’m not even a Democrat, why do I take this shit so personally? Dear God, it would be nice to be ignorant. Wait a second; God has nothing to do with this AND WE NEED TO REMEMBER THAT! Believe in whatever you want, that is certainly your right (and coincidentally, ranting political-like is not all I do on Wednesdays, I also go to church) but please, please, keep it within your house and religious organization and out of the politics of America, where last time I checked we had the right to freedom of choice in religion- or lack of religion, if that’s what you prefer.

Whew. I’m stopping; I’m stopping. Sorry if you sat through that whole thing.

I Abhor Tuesdays

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Everyone has their "worst day," that day of the week that you dread waking up on. Tuesday is mine, and here it is upon us.

There is nothing redeemable about a day that begins with waking up at 6am and involves school from 8am until 5pm (and I do happen to think that in a university conspiracy, they put all the most boring classes on Tuesday). As a bonus, today I have an exam. Should be a good one... I tell you, I'd give almost anything to climb back into bed right now.

Religious Extremists

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I was taking a break from studying, doing a little research on the Reverend Fred Phelps so that I can be prepared for his visit to campus next weekend... when I stumbled across this website with a bunch of quotes from religious leaders of the US. Venture carefully, you are sure to be appalled.

I think the one that dropped my jaw the most severly is by Kansas senator, Kay O'Connor. Says she, "I'm an old-fashioned woman. Men should take care of women, and if men were taking care of women today, we wouldn't have to vote." Oh. My. God.

Political Rant Wednesdays

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If I'm going to be all politically charged on Wednesdays, we might as well give it a name, so here it is. Political Rant Wednesdays, at your service.

In an unprecidented victory, Kwame Kilpatrick is Detroit's mayor for another four years. I wonder how much more money he will be able to squander in that time. Probably an ass-load. Hopefully he'll be out before then though, I heard that the FBI is investigating some reports of dead people, dementia patients, and vacant lots voting. Here's to hoping they find something.

Also, Fred Phelps of godhatesfags.com fame will be coming to Ann Arbor on the weekend of the 19th to protest The Laramie Project. There will be a "silent, non-violent witness" to his and his cohorts presence, of which I will be a part. Please, anyone who wants to participate, more bodies are needed. Contact me and we'll go together, make a love event out of something so hateful.

That's it, I'm drained, don't want to write anymore.

KTC and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Series of Unfortunate Events

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You all know about the car thing... having no wheels sucks for a number of reasons, mostly that I feel no independence and also feel like a burden on my friends who are nice enough to cart me around.

Nothing happened today that equals losing a car, but in the style of Alexander and Leminy Snicket, it was terribly bad.

I was walking down Packard to the store, daydreaming about what a fabulous evening I had last night, when I tripped right over this planter thing and landed on the sidewalk. It hurt. There were cars driving by (so embarrassing). The beautiful onyx bracelet that my mother made me caught on something, sending beads everywhere. My cell phone dropped out of my pocket and twisted into some unrecognizable metal conglomeration.

Grr. Lovely. I picked myself, the beads I could find, the metal thing and it's random pieces up. Went to the store as planned and returned to Jacob's. I started to realize that I was really really hurt, especially my tore up right hand, left elbow, and left knee. Ouch ouch. I put my phone back together as best I could with electrical tape, and to my amazement, all but one button worked. Jacob wouldn't stop making fun of me, so I left to go study at Rendez-Vous.

While walking there, one of the straps on my backpack broke. Great.

Got some work done, and now I'm sitting here with frozen squash on my knee, feeling sorry for myself, and really really not wanting to walk to the bus stop tomorrow. Also desperately hoping the repair stitches in my backpack strap won't give out, and I that I might be able to replace the phone for fairly cheap.

What's next?? At this point I can only say, Bring It On.

News Flash: Sunfire to Enter Car Graveyard

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The Sunfire drove it's last mile yesterday.

I was driving to my dentist appointment in Walled Lake, stopped at a stoplight (on M-5, a busy 3 lane highway) in the fast lane, and then when it turned green and I hit the excellerator, the car turned off. Shit... started it, hit the gas, turned off again. Repeat. Repeat.

Shit. What do I do? People are zooming past me, honking horns, I am getting panicky, freaking out, calling my mother... she yells at me to get out of the car, I freak out a little more and then go stand on the median. Luckily a cop making a traffic stop saw me pretty quickly, he came and put his lights on behind me. Towed the car to the shop. Freaking out... freaking out so hard, how is this possible, I've already spent so much money on this stupid satan car (new alternator, starter, etc, etc, etc) that was supposed to be so fabulous.

Well, I think I've said I was freaking out quite a few times but I really can not illustrate enough my reaction to this event... panic attack x 10000. I do realize that it's just a car and I'm lucky to not have been hurt. But the countless car problems I've had my whole driving life (see past posts, you will understand) on top of all the shit for school I needed to get done yesterday, and some other stuff that I've got going on... it just really sucked hard.

So, found out today that the transmission is shot, there's stuff wrong with the axles, and some other crap is all screwed up which amounts to around $2500. Yeah, right. Good thing I know how to take the bus.

So, if you happen to know someone selling a cheap used car, please get ahold of me. I am broke but I do have some assets. And I'd much rather put them into a new car than freaking deal with this Sunfire one minute longer.

The US Government is EVIL

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My Social Welfare Policy class is probably my favorite of all my classes because it's the most interesting, and I learn the most about current events in politics, but I always seem to walk out of there really angry. I will spare you my socialist views and just say that George W., Chaney, and the war on terrorism are really freaking me out.

The other day I heard that George estimates that we'll be at war for at least nine more years and really all I think about is the mass number of people that will be dead by then... I also wonder if one of those will be close to me, as I know at least three people who could go to Iraq any second now.

Makes me feel so useless.